Lingering Madness

Okay, so it's been awhile. Shit has been going down for real.

( Car drama be here. )
( Website/vid drama here. )

( Nano, Trek, and Vidding Oh My! )

*Hugs to everyone who sent me an accidentally free snow cookie! You guys are the bestest!*

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How the hell did Life get canceled? Does nobody watch quality tv anymore? The dialogue, writing, acting, everything was spot on and brilliant.

Seriously. What. The. Fuck.

My solution. . . cancel Heroes before it gets any worse and bring Life back.

My muse is a fickle bitch. 

*sigh*

Normally she sweeps in, does her job, then takes a 6 month vacation. It's annoying. Really.

But, I've discovered that she doesn't like to have her hand forced. Since I made her come back early from her little Vay-cay, to make my brilliant HP vid, she's decided to stick around. Changed her flight and everything. This is not a good thing. 

Has she inspired a new Stargate or Supernatural vid? No. Buffy, Angel, Heroes, Bones, Chuck, Psych or even The X-Files? Hells no!

She gave me Jane Austen. 

Jane. 

Fucking. 

Austin.

I just...it's...*blink* 

*sigh*

I should have never tied her up.   

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 So, I believe everyone is aware of the suckage of my jobs. I take care of disabled individuals and also work at Subway. Both are part-time currently, though I'm about to pick up more hours at the first job cause the latter is about to say I quit.

I am supposed to be at Subway right now. I am supposed to be working until 11pm. I am not. I am not happy about this.

It all began when I showed up to find myself scheduled with the new girl. A co-worker, on his way out the door, tells me it has been crazy all day and wishes me luck. My other co-worker, also on the way out the door, informs me that my helper today is not to make the sandwiches or run the register. 

What?

So, I call the owner and ask why I'm scheduled with somebody that isn't supposed to do anything while I have to do everything and try to get 3 hours of cleaning done in 90 minutes? She says she'll send somebody down.

Somebody comes down. Somebody gets on the phone. Somebody hands me the phone. Owner tells me to go home. I'm home.

And beyond angry.

I have not quit. I have not been fired. I do not have a job anymore.

This needs explaining.

A former co-worker was not given the new schedule, even after requesting that she be called if she were scheduled the following week. So, she didn't work that week. I call her to ask why she was not at work (we were supposed to close together). She says she wasn't told she had to work. So, she calls in, is reamed for not showing up, defends herself, is given schedule for following week. All is well until. . . owner calls her and says that it's a mistake, she's not on the schedule. Friend asks why, owner says it's not her responsibility to tell her when she works and if she doesn't want hours then she won't get them. Friend is confused as all hell, but says if you don't schedule me for this week then don't schedule me for the week after either. I go to work next day, big sign saying 'friend' quit. I tell friend, friend says fuck them. Now, repeat scenerio with me. 

I work for assholes.

So, I believe I've just failed not one, but two classes at once. 

*sobs*

I turned in two finals at 3am, and I know that both of them suck. Serious. Complete. Suckage. I feel sick. I don't want to fail. I hate failure. Failure is unacceptable. If I fail I am doomed, financially and morally. I cannot pay another $3500 to retake those classes, nor can my poor, damaged psyche (how the frick do you spell that?) handle the mental strain of revisiting the horror of those classes.

*le sigh*

I just need to come to terms with the simple (huh, pun intended) fact that I am an idiot. Complete. Mouth-Breathing. Buffoon.

*Runs around, drooling, slapping into walls and furniture without slowing down screaming BUFFOON! BUFFOON!* 

Well, now that that's out of my system, I need to get a shower, wash my clothes and try to nap before I have to leave for work at 5am. 

*sobs-again* 

Edit: I passed my CRT final. I think my teacher was smoking crack when she graded my paper but yay! I passed critical thinking. Now, Business Communications? That I failed for sure. *but I suck less then I thought*

                                                                                                       
This is an email I got from a friend today. A friend who knows I hate this kind of arrogant bullshit! Christian fanactics have a lot in common with Muslim Extremists. They are all arrogant assholes.

***I really kept my calm in my response when I really wanted to be a raging bitch and really call her out. I am really just sick of the arrogance. Christianity is the only self-promoting religious. All of the Jesus recruiters can kiss my ass. I don't knock on your door and spew my beliefs into your face. I have never once spammed my friends with Wiccan information or propaganda. The most is a simple 'Blessed Be' within a holiday card. Seriously, have a little respect.